REUNITED FOR A NIGHT, AND IT FELT SO… BLAH
After writing my last piece, I couldn’t help but consider having ex sex. And since I was experiencing a dry spell/breakup, I figured what the hell — what do I have to lose?
On a night out drinking, I came up with the brilliant idea to have sex with an ex. It had been ages since he and I had a sexual encounter, but I was determined to get a quick fix, so I called him. At first, I thought he was going to reject the idea, better yet my call (we ended things on bad terms). But of course, just as any man in his right mind…
… he couldn’t resist, and insisted I’d come over.
We came to an agreement to meet at his home. As soon as I got the OK, my inner goddess was filled with pleasure. But my heart/mind on the other hand, wasn’t too fond of the idea. Despite the hesitation, I was on my way.
Once I arrived, all I could think about was sex. So I got to it. The sex was great, as usual, but it was missing the extra ‘oomph’- the passion between us.
I know, I know… I went there for a quick fix. I shouldn’t expect for us to have the same connection we once had, which may I add was magical.
But overall, this experience has made me realize that I can’t have empty sex. I can, I did, but I’d rather not. Blah isn’t good enough. I need passion… Fireworks!
So my question is, should I continue having ‘blah’ sex or should I hold out until I find someone who can make my kitty purr again? Keep in mind, I still deeply care about this particular ex, and he does for me. So there is a slight possibility that the fireworks may return, but will the feelings resurface as well? Ahh… when having sex with an ex gets complicated. Playing with fire, I am.